it’s all downhill from here
what does that even mean? it’s always been a quandry to me. ok im not really asking exactly what it means, but im just trying to figure out the difference between when someone says, “its all downhill from here” versus “its all uphill from here”. ok because in my head, when something is going downhill, that’s kinda like “when you’re at the top, the only way to go is down” which is a bad thing, right? but then again, going downhill is easier than going uphill. and when you’re going uphill, when you’re using that as progress, that’s a good thing. its one of those things that always has me thinking whenever i choose to use it in conversation. going uphill is definitely more difficult, i always think about when i was younger and used to rollerblade, i would have the most difficult time going up hills. there was this park by my house that i used to go to, and then id go down the hill all crazy, but then remember how difficult it was to go back up. sin wave. ok i guess when im going to be talking about the ease/difficulty of something, then im going to use downhill, but then when im talking about progress, then i’ll use uphill? i dont know man, its still pretty difficult to easily distinguish the two from each other in quick conversation. now that im thinking about it, im getting more and more confused, and im almost at the point where im going to not even use it anymore. it will always be that hindrance from having fluid conversation. you know when you’re talking to someone and they stutter hardcore, dont you notice it pretty easily? especially when its pointed out. but in general, whenever anything is pointed out, doesnt it feel like you start to notice it around more and more? like when someone says “its the end of the month there are more cops out” you start noticing more cops around. but in that case, maybe there really are more cops around, but then what if its only because you’re looking for it? i had this teacher, strassburg, who pronouned “human” and “huge” as “you-man” and “you-ge”, and as soon as we noticed it, i could NOT stop hearing it! and the thing is, its not like i know he’s gonna say the word human or huge and then anticipate how he’s gonna say it, i just hear it and it sticks out like a sore thumb (btw, how much does a sore thumb actually stick out? its not like these are cartoons and it gets all huge and red and swollen after hitting it with a hammer or something, yenno?) maybe its my subconsious just keeping a keen ear for it. maybe it takes note of what things we’ve written down in our mind as something notable. if i was talking to you, and i was like, dude, brunettes are mad hot. and then you never really noticed before, but then after a while, you were like, yeah brunettes really are hot! did i just somehow convert you? or did i make you notice? i guess maybe we’re good at highlighting things in our mind, and then as we glaze around in life, we notice the things that are highlighted or in bold. command-B! they say you should really observe things around you, right? but what if you’re such a keen observer that you notice a lot of things that annoy you? would you consider being less observant? its like having a skill or superpower that’s so awesome that it becomes counterproductive. like what if you could read people’s minds? at first, you’d be like, dude that so dope! but then after a while, no matter how awesome it is, you would realize that you couldnt live your life normally anymore. of course, for the most part, that would be because if you could read people’s minds, you’re already automatically not normal. you’d be able to see people for what they really are thinking when theyre talking to you, you could see what theyre really trying to say if theyre lying to you, and wouldnt that be crazy!? if i could pick a superpower, it would definitely be teleporting.